Weird Dream

After looking through the photos taken at the NTU/NYP concert, love this picture the most cause I think I look great in this one. =)

Taken by Liwen's handphone. Yar... great handphone. Think I always look good in her phone. Must ask her to be the permanent photographer in all our outings!

This morning had some weird dreams. Dreamt of scenes from the show "Zhou Xiang Gong He" (the show that talks about the transition of Qing Dynasty to Rupublic of China). But it's sort of crazy. Forgot the storyline in my dream. But remember dreamt of the Emperor, the Empress Dowager and certain other characters in the story.

An interesting quote about women:-
Every woman needs to know that she is exquisite and exotic and chosen. This is core to her identity, the way whe bears the image of God. Will you pursue me? Do you delight in me? Will you fight for me?
- John Eldredge, "Wild at Hearts"

Obedience

Quote :

"The way we will spend eternity is determined by our submission to His authority here [on earth]. Nothing else matters, except to live a life of obedience to His Will."
- John Bevere, "The Devil's Door"

Interesting book by John Bevere on how obedience to God can protect us from the bondage of sin.

This photo was taken at Marine Parade Central during cell group using Kenneth's NEW handphone.

Fruitful Saturday

My eldest brother wanted to drive my mum down to bugis today, so I tagged along so as to cut down travelling time for myself. Thanks God I tagged along cause when I left Bugis, I found that certain roads were sealed for NDP rehearsals. And all the buses that I can take down to church from Bugis are detouring. Thank God I was there at Bugis, or else I'm sure to be extra late for church service.

So no choice... have to take a cab down. And I was about 20 minutes early. Still feeling very down and upset when I reached church. But thank God that managed to release my burden in the time of worship. The release came in the form of a few tears coming out of my eyes. Thank God I didn't cry too badly. Ha!

Felt much better after service. Thank God!

Tired

Been busy the past few days.

What have I been doing the 2 days? Working part-time, meeting Pastor Lily for CIP stuffs, writing cards for the jc students, meeting up people for dinner and chats.... been out the past few days and returning late every night(except Wednesday).

Attended NTU/NYP band concert yesterday night with Wenguang and Liwen and returned home about 1130pm last night. Just early enough to watch the Guess Show.

Sort of feeling exhausted right now.

Yes...really exhausted. Not only physically, but also emotionally and spiritually also. Just sort of feel like resting at home for today and nua a bit.

But cannot lar... Still got to leave home at 3pm for my 5pm service. Most likely will reach home at 12 midnight again. Then tomorrow morning still have to go for SOL again. Really wish can just sleep and sleep and rest till I'm fully recharged again.

Felt sort of weak now... but I guess the best solution is to enter God's Presence and to find rest for my soul and healing for my spirit. =>

Liwen, Wenguang, Steve 

Independent me!

Well... a few post ago I mentioned that my bro got married. But the thing is he's still living in the same room as me. Argh !!!!

Well... My brother and sister-in-law has gotten a HDB unit at Depot Road. But they're planning to spend some time renovating the place, and also preparing for their chinese wedding, then shift into their new flat. So... for the next few months, I'm still sharing room with my brother.

I'm not complaining. Just that sometimes my brother will read magazine late at night till he doze off. So, when I want to sleep, I'll always deliberately walk in and out of the room so that hopefully he'll wake up and switch off the lights. When this fail, then I'll just switch off the lights and go to sleep sheepishly.

Yar... talking about deliberately walking in and out of the room. Recently discover that I'm actually a person with a lot of "xin ji". But think of it.. my hidden motives are all very good one. Never had any intentions to harm anyone. So for those reading this post... please don't keep your distance from me.

Been slightly busy these few days. Mum's with eldest brother at church camp in malaysia from Wed till Sat. Which means that I'll have to do all the housework. So getting a bit tired. It sure ain't easy being a housewife/houseman.

Salute to all Fathers on Father's Day!!!

Cluster Camp - Rebuild Families, Renew Worsip

Had a 3D2N cluster camp at St. Francis Methodist School. The theme of the camp is Rebuild Family, Renew Worship.

I arrived late the first night with Jiajin, Wanting and Ting ting after Maggie's birthday party. We were splited up into our games group and a a great time playing treasure hunt. The aim of the games is to find the 66 books of the bible that were hidden all over the school compound. Out of 12 groups, my group won the game as we had found 24 books out of the 66. The activities carried late into midnight and I slept at 2am after chatting a while with Jerome.

The 2nd was was real hectic. Had 3 hour of games from 130-430pm. Well.. Really like the games cause don't need to get dirty like the past 2 cluster games. Rested a while after the games. And we had 3-hours worshipping God from 730pm-1030pm. And that sort of concluded Sat.

Sunday was more of cell group and network time. And we entered a time when our leaders washed our feet for us. And then we had the Lord's Supper.

Well... This camp was sort of fast. Only Jerome, Jiajin, Fredrik, Guanhong and me were around. Quite sad that the rest of the guys weren't around. But I enjoyed the camp nonetheless.

2 busy days

Yesterday was a busy day... Went working "part-time" in the morning, then went to give "tuition" from 2-6. Lastly went outing with my NTU friends at suntec(can refer to the picture below). We went marche and stroll around suntec.

Today was another "busy" day. My 2nd bro getting married today.

Went to Raffles Hotel to witness the ceremony. Nothing much leh. Everything happened quite fast. Just before the ceremony start, I went over to Tecman to buy the book "Wild at Heart" after seeing the female version of "Wild at Heart" from Peilan.

Then they were entertaining their friends and it was sort of boring for me. Later both families went for dinner and we just had a 9-course dinner together.

Outing at suntec 

My brain

Your Brain is 53.33% Female, 46.67% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

The Question behind the question.

Sat sermon was really interesting. The story came from Luke 10:25-37. Just to sum things up... The expert in the Law asked "And who is my neighbour ?" in verse29 and then Jesus went to give the parable of the Good Samaritan. But actually, the parable is really answering the previous question on "What must I do to inherit eternal Life?"

A lot of times, we are like this expert of the law... We don't really get to the heart of the issue.

Recently, I'm "looking" for a job. And at the moment, there are 2 job offers and I'm really having a hard time deciding which job offer should I accept. But I realised that the crux of the issue is not really "Which job to accept", but it is "Do I really want a job?"

Frankly speaking, I don't really want to work. (Who in the world would want to work if they got a choice?) But cause of the long holidays and limited financial resources, I told myself I should get a job. But deep inside, I rather just laze around and do nothing.

Anyway... will spend time later to talk to God about it and hopefully I won't think so much then...

Interesting point

Interesting points made by Dr Henry Cloud in his book Changes that Heal. You can find this in the chapter, "What is the problem?"

"The world around us is good and bad. The people around us are good and bad. We are good and bad. Our natural tendency is to try and resolve the problem of good and evil by keeping the good and the bad separated... This creates a split in our experience of ourselves, others, and the world around us - a split that is not based on reality and cannot stand the test of time and real life...

It was not always this way. There was a time on planet Earth when everythinh was all good. God had painted a picture on the canvas of reality, and the reality of his picture wa perfection. The creation, including humans, was without blemish. We were without sin...

We were not made to deal with the effect of the Fall... We were not prepared to be imperfect. We don't have enough grace inside to anesthetize us against the pain of our own badness. It is horrible ebough to feel sin; but the guilt of the sin is even worse...

Deep down inside, we all realize the difference between our ideal self, the imagined perfection, and our real self, the one that truly is.

Acceptance of good and bad is the biblical alternative. It is called grace and truth... We accept anad forgive the bad, while clinging to the ideal as an unrealized goal that we strive for in an atmosphere of full acceptance. We stand in grace. This strategy does not split the good and the bad, nor does it get angry and condemning, but it grasps onto both the good and the bad at the same time.

If we are hurting someone, God, or ourselves, this sin will grieve us if we do not focus on our guilt. That grief, called godly sorrow. will move us not to punish ourselves, or anyone else but to take care of the one being hurt. This is the essence of a love-based marality."